Is it easier to run away?

So the final blow was delivered yesterday.  After waiting until i couldn't wait anymore.  I came out with it and was either going to get the answers to all my questions and/or just end it myself and start getting over the loss of someone I thought was the "one".  I had to prepare myself to not get in a fight with Ann, because that would only accomplish nothing.  I thought the conversation on my part went very good, and I laid out all the things that I needed to say and thought that she needed to hear.  It leaves a sickening feeling to find out how easy it is for someone you love and respect to just be able to disconnect from you so easily and so coldly!  I constantly ask myself when am I going to listen to my intuition and stop thinking that I have the power to make something work.  The truth is, that you can't force someone to feel the same way you do, especially if they are so stubborn and close themselves off as soon as a problem comes by.  Anyone who says that a good relationship is easy, and doesn't have to be worked on is not going to find happiness with someone else for too long.  I guess it easier to run away and leave all your problems behind, but those problems will just present themselves in a new form where ever you go!  Ann and I had / have a  friendship that was so important to me that I should have learned from the first 2 times, and I wouldn't be in this mess.  I am struggling right now with the feeling of abandonment, hurt, apathy, and so many others.  I wish I was over it already, and go back to just being her friend, but it is way too early for that.  My pride is destroyed, and I am keeping myself away from anything that reminds me of her.  I hope that in time I will be able to regain my pride and be able to be friends with her.  I consider her to be my best friend and that is the part that hurts the most.  I should have not let her pull those strings for a 3rd time!!!  I know that I will not let this happen again, especially with her!  I would love for her to come back to me and said she made a mistake and wants to work things out, just so I can say no, and tell her that our friendship will be for life if we never cross that line again!  It was so much easier to be her friend, and much more permanent.  Is it wrong to think that in a relationship, there will be ups and downs?  Is it wrong to think that you must allow the person you are with to make mistakes and see if they learn from them before you put that wall back up and shut them out?  If you feel the answer is yes, which I do,  then I know that there is nothing I can do to make her realize that, and that she has that issue to work out with herself.  The "I'm over it"  feeling has an open invitation from me to arrive asap!!!!  there are so many things i want to pound into her head and try to make her understand, but i know it would be just like talking to a brick wall!  The only thing i can do is wait, so here I am waiting.... on what I haven't been able to make up my mind on...................